Tuesday, October 28, 2014

making it happen...

Our weekend was perfect.

Saturday morning I laced up and went for a five mile run down a path connected to my neighborhood. Overcast skies, a cool 60 degrees, and it was quiet. The path is cut between tall grass, overrun by wild flowers, and runs parallel to train tracks. I couldn't help but smile as the train conductor waved to me as he passed by. Is this real life?

I returned home to find my little one and my husband in a tickle fight on the couch with cartoons playing on the TV. We made breakfast and shared a pot of coffee.

The sun came out, full force, and warmed us up to the point where we almost didn't need a jacket. We packed up the family and headed to a local farm to pick out a couple of pumpkins and snap a few fall photographs. After all, we've lived in Texas for five years! We had some fall festivities to catch up on. 

When we got home we put the babe down for a nap and we sat outside with a beer on our deck. The weather could not have been more perfect. We noticed the previous homeowners had planted all of the necessary ingredients for a kick ass salsa so we blended up a hot-as-hell, face melter kind of batch and enjoyed our hour of alone time together.

Both sets of parents stopped over to say hi. This warms our hearts so much. It's so wonderful living near family. We've missed this. 

Our Buckeyes played a night game so we lit a fire and cuddled up with some blankets on the couch. We stayed up late drinking brew, biting our nails, and cheering on our team. We must have looked at each other one-hundred times and said out loud, "I can't believe we made this happen."

We did. We made this happen. And in short time too. Let us be an example that you can have the life you want. You just need to be ok with getting a little comfortable with the unknown. Not knowing when, where, how. Just doing everything in your power and trusting the rest will fall into place. It will. 

Monday, October 27, 2014


Woah... it has been one year since I was admitted to the hospital for what would be one hell of a difficult, yet exciting week to follow. I wrote the following post from the World's most uncomfortable hospital bed and thought I would be released that afternoon. Little did I know that the Universe had other plans. Reflecting on my message from this post, I was preaching flexibility before I even realized that I would need to be EVEN MORE flexible for what the next few days had in store. I have never found the right words to describe that grueling week as we anxiously awaited the birth of our daughter. I had never experienced as much fear or as much excitement within such a short period of time, but holy shit was it ever the greatest test in patience, positivity, and trust. While we would have rather not been involved in a car accident we were able to leave the hospital with the cutest, sweetest, silliest little baby on the planet and for that... I am grateful.


Just when I thought our baby was tucked in so tightly that we may very we'll surpass our due date... BAM! My husband and I were rear ended while we were out for lunch and groceries yesterday.

I was in shock. I grabbed my belly and just started crying hysterically. If you've ever been rear ended when your car was at a complete stop you know time somehow warps and everything is suddenly in slow motion... Until your head and arms go flying forward.

At 38 weeks pregnant, the thought of not knowing how the baby was affected had us incredibly shook up. My neck was tingly and my head was throbbing. I couldn't get the baby to move. We called my doctor and she sent us straight to the labor delivery unit at the hospital. Wait? Are we going to have our baby right now?!

We got checked in and hooked up to the monitor.. our baby had a strong heartbeat. THANK YOU!!

::insert deep yoga breath here::

Because I started having contractions, most likely from stress, I needed to be kept 24 hours for monitoring. We both checked out great and we didn't need to be induced or have an emergency c-section.

Sixteen hours later and maybe five hours of sleep. No real strong or consistent contractions and no sign of labor. I should be released later this afternoon if things stay the same.

What this has me thinking about is how agile I needed to be, and was, with my birth plan yesterday. I had to drop the disappointment of potentially having to be induced. I had to stop blaming the woman who was riding us too close on the road. And I had to stay calm. This further reinforced how important it is to be flexible, in your body and mind, a concept I first learned through my yoga practice.

Things may not always go as planned. I really do believe it is still important to believe in the possibility that it can and will go your way. Have confidence in your goals while being willing to accept when you need to tweak the plans.

Will I still have my perfect, drug free, natural hospital birth? Maybe! Maybe not! My new plan is to be present and breathe deeply. I know I'm in great hands and I am capable of making the right choices for me and my baby. However it happens, all that matters is that I'm holding my little muppet in my arms at the end of the day.


Saturday, October 4, 2014

it's all lining up...

Spot on.

It's all lining up. Job hunting is in full swing. We're taking the necessary steps towards selling our home. We scour real-estate sites for homes in our price range in our desired locations. We are having discussions about what needs to happen to relocate our family.

The right people are heading my way. We need this to be true. We are using every connection we have to network and get resumes in front of actual recruiters and hiring managers. It can be hard putting yourself out there and asking for support but we are doing it.

The right things will be said. Friends and family have been supportive. I think they may still be a little worried that we are rushing the process and they may find it insane that we are even thinking of moving Marley and I to Ohio before Brett. However, everyone so far has offered their support and positive thoughts and that is exactly what we need right now.

I will be a total love magnet. I love this. What a great reminder to always be doing, acting, and saying things from a place of love.

Unfolding. I don't know what will happen or where I'm going to be living in couple of months. Hell, I'm not even sure whats going to happen later this afternoon. I am however, totally trusting that what I put out into the universe will soon come to fruition. I have faith that things are lining up and soon we will see the obvious path that we should take.

Stunning perfection. In the end, I know everything will have worked out exactly as it was supposed to.